Attention, earthlings, you have 2 days to the end of the world. BEWARE XDXD
In short, today was a bittersweet day...
First off, our Chinese lesson went on quite fruitfully. I was particularly enthusiastic this session because I actually have an interest in the chapter we were discussing, which was about Sun Wukong: Quest for the Sutra. I had fun teasing Ah Liang's gravity-defying hair XDXD
After that, it was Geography and Science following up. I shall not elaborate on those as nothing much happened.
After recess was the real deal. As my fellow 2E2 peeps know, Beat Rice is NO LONGER our English teacher! Not to sound rude or anything, but I thought she'd never leave! I was like "FINALLY!!!" And also, I dislike her because she gave me a C6 for my CA1!!! NOT FAIR!!! If it were Mr. Wong grading me, he'd give me at least a B3! C'mon! A C6? I know I suck like hell, but a C6 is GOING TOO FAR XP!
Enough about that.
Alright, down to my point for today's post...Choir.
To all my fellow choir members, although because I'm only a Sec 2 student, I shouldn't be the one saying this, but we have got to stop f**king around! SYF is about 1 and a half month away!!! Some of us are trying really hard to be the best we can be, but what about the others? You keep saying you hate choir, you hate choir, but haven't you ever wondered that if you work harder and helped our choir improve, you might actually start enjoying life as a choir girl? Mr. Wilson said that we sounded like CRAP and you know why? We didn't try hard enough! Can't we just make our efforts worthwhile by making efforts in the first place? I'll admit that I didn't give my 100% best today and that was because I had a sore throat, but I kept singing despite that. Has anyone of you lost your voice right after a session? I did. I could hardly even speak after today's shitty rehearsal. Our seniors are trying to help us but in spite of that, some of us just ignore them. I can't say that I was the only one trying because I'm not.
Shi Jia and Josephine sang until they almost lost their voice, Cui Ting and Amelia sang until they cried. Has that happened to any of you?
Though I myself often wonder if my passion for singing has diminished because of choir, but...
Memories of the great times we have as a choir would come back to me. Last year, during the concert period, we were all so psyched about it and we tried to do our very best. What happened after that? When did the love of singing disappear? We've had good times and been through bad times, now SYF is so, so close, can't we just make it a great time to be? It'd be our Sec 4 seniors' final SYF with Swiss Choir and I'm sure no one would want them to leave regretting that they joined choir instead of freakin band.
All of us have heard our teachers say that Mr. Wilson is coming to conduct us for free. He could've given up on us and went on to other schools that actually make his sessions worthwhile. Still, he never stopped believing in us. It's just that every time we let him down, his hopes sink, and they would rise up again the next time we see him. Does it feel good to you people? Dashing hopes?
Regret is a horrible emotion one should feel. I really, really don't want us to break down...Swiss Choir cannot go on like this if only so few of us actually try to do well. Evolution gave us vocal cords for a reason. The Gods gave us life and the ability to make people happy for a reason. Time gave us the ability to prepare for a reason. And Life itself gives us the chance to correct our wrongs.
Although we may have bad times to come, can we still bring sunrise to a seemingly endless night? Can we all just give our best for Swiss Choir? ...Because, I really don't want us to be looked down upon by others. It hurts...That feeling of weakness, not being able to stand up when fallen...It really hurts. Can we all just prove ourselves to be as worthy as others?
I don't want anyone to cry anymore...
That past vanishes in a blizzard of pink and white... 5:16 AM
Born of the twin fish Pisces on the 8th of March
