I look away from their eyes
Just smile and I might pull through
But inside, a mournful voice cries
No, that’s not true
Don’t even ask me why I cry
I don’t cry, I don’t weep
Those tears have long gone dry
I want to be able to cry myself to sleep
Yet compared to your woes
Mine seem so trivial, so hollow
Still it drives a stake through my soul
I have no real reason to sorrow
Why do I bleed then?
Why do I feel the need to lie?
Why do I lose myself to them?
Why do I feel the need to lie?
I look away from your eyes
Just smile and I might just survive
But all I seem to see are grey skies
Into the abyss of emptiness I dived
Don’t even ask me why I seethe
To repent and seek redemption for me
Under your gaze, I can’t even breathe
Cuz I know I can’t be free
Yet compared to your woes
Mine seem so trivial, so very pointless
Still it drives a stake through my soul
I have no real reason to be cheerless
Why do I bleed then?
Why do I need to force myself?
Why do I lose myself to them?
Why do I need to force myself?
I don’t even know why anymore
I should be happy, right?
Smile and walk through that open door
Forget the darkness and into the light
But…I can’t. I just can’t do it
Why can’t I just be content and live?
Steady and sure as my heartbeat
I continue to lie and deceive
Yet compared to your woes
Mine seem so trivial, so hollow
Still it drives a stake through my soul
I have no real reason to sorrow
Why do I bleed then?
Why do I feel the need to lie?
Why do I lose myself to them?
Why do I feel the need to cry?
I can’t weep anymore
These tears have long gone dry
Tore off the wings on which I used to soar
No longer will I see the skies
Don’t even ask me why I seethe
To repent and seek redemption for me
Under your gaze, I can’t even breathe
Cuz I know I can’t be free
I look away from their eyes
Just smile and I might pull through
But inside, a mournful voice cries
No, that’s not true
Yet compared to your woes
Mine seem so trivial, so hollow
Still it drives a stake through my soul
I have no real reason to sorrow
Why do I bleed then?
Why do I feel the need to lie?
Why do I lose myself to them?
Why do I feel the need to cry?
Don’t even ask me why I seethe
To repent and seek redemption for me
Under your gaze, I can’t even breathe
Cuz I know I can’t be free
That past vanishes in a blizzard of pink and white... 8:23 AM
She’s down again, I see that so clear
Something in her eyes, clouded with tears
It hurts to see a friend with a broken heart
But her troubles she won’t impart
So I sit wondering why oh why
Cuz unlike me, her life is not a lie
She’s popular, she’s pretty, she’s clever
I’m a loser, I’m plain and I’m denser
She’s got boys begging for her hand
I’ve got friends who never understand
So I sit here wondering why oh why
Trying to figure out the reason she cries
I really don’t know, it hurts to think
She never tells me about anything
It doesn’t add up, it doesn’t make sense
The need for all this goddamned pretense
So I sit here wondering why oh why
Cuz unlike me, her life is not a lie
She’s rich, she’s down-to-earth, she’s friendly
I’m penniless, I’m shallow and I’m nasty
She’s got everything, her life is perfect
I’ve got nothing, my life’s a wreck
So I sit here wondering why oh why
Trying to figure out the reason she cries
I really don’t know, nothing in my mind
A perfect life like hers every girl wants to find
She’s never been through what I have
She doesn’t know how flawless a life she has
So I sit here wondering why oh why
Cuz unlike me, her life is not a lie
Unlike me, her life is not a lie
That past vanishes in a blizzard of pink and white... 8:00 PM
Born of the twin fish Pisces on the 8th of March
